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Who We Are. By Rick Sayre
Synopsis: The Winterbottoms are a family living in Manhattan.
Virginia is a Senator, her recently divorced ex, Seymour, is a
celebrated novelist, whose newly published autobiography causes uproar
among his family. Seymour is involved in a tumultuous affair with a
fiery younger artist, Sarah Thomas. Hannah is the eldest child, from
Seymour’s first marriage, a rising star in the publishing business.
Heathcliff is the middle child, a screenwriter, who is dating John
Taylor, despite the fact that he has always been in love with his ex,
Ryan Cole, who works for Virginia. Allegra is the youngest daughter and
Seymour’s favorite, a recent divorcee who is now confronting life as a
single mother and trying to re-enter the world of dating in Manhattan.
Meet
the Winterbottoms:
We
enter the scene in the midst of a conversation. Hannah, Heath & Grant
are all sitting in a café, finishing the last dregs of a meal and
talking.
Hannah: So, are you going to see him again?
Grant: Absolutely not. He was a Log Cabin guy.
Hannah: Heath, please translate into heterosexual.
Heath: Gay Republican. Sorta rare, oddly they tend to be pretty hot.
Although that wouldn’t matter to Grant. Or am I the only one who
remembers Walter the anesthesiologist?
Grant: Ignore your brother, Hannah. He’s just jealous.
Heath: Uh-huh.
Grant: I’m totally serious.
Heath: Wait, do you honestly think I’m jealous that you’ve been nailed
by every top in four out of the five boroughs?
Grant: (to Hannah) It’s true, I don’t do Staten Island. (to Heath)
Honestly, yes. I think you’re insecure, you feel inexperienced. You wish
you could just let go a little and be more open to new experiences.
Heath: Or in your case, wide open. My problem is that, like, 99.9% of
the guys I’m attracted to are straight. I don’t really like most other
gay men. I’m so homophobic that I even hate myself.
Hannah: Grant actually has a point. You’ve only been with a couple of
guys.
Grant: What, like three?
Heath: Three! No. There was Matthew, then Paul, Vincent and Sean. And
now John. That’s five, Miss Keeping Score.
Hannah: What about Ryan?
Heath: Ryan. Yeah. During the Great 43-Day Affair. Yes. Ryan makes it
six.
Grant: Tell us all about sex with Ryan!
Heath: No.
Hannah: How is Ryan anyway?
Heath: I don’t really know.
Grant: Liar. You’ve probably seen him recently, enjoyed one of your
“let’s just get together and talk” lunches.
Heath: Not lately. I talk to John, now.
Grant: Ten years from now? You and Ryan.
Hannah: Five.
Heath: Not talking about men anymore.
Hannah: We have to meet the family in twenty minutes, anyway.
Grant: What is this dinner about, anyway?
Hannah: Family gathering to discuss Dad’s autobiography.
Heath: Which I still don’t get. Are we going to perform a table reading?
Can I play mom?
Grant: Wow, it’s been like five years since he’s written anything. How
is it?
Heath: Actually… I haven’t read it yet. He’s been very mysterious.
Hannah, have you seen it?
Hannah: No.
Heath: That’s weird, right?
Hannah: I guess we don’t rate copies anymore now that we’ve moved. Maybe
he just doesn’t have the address to the apartment.
Heath: True. As far as Seymour Winterbottom is concerned, once you’re
off the island, you’re off the map. He’s like those people who used to
believe the world was flat. Once you’ve left Manhattan, you’ve pretty
much sailed off the edge.
Grant: You only moved to Brooklyn.
Hannah: Yes, but it’s a big disappointment to him. Bigger than Heath
being gay.
Heath: And a television writer.
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TO:
The Winterbottom Home. Allegra is in the foyer, dressed for dinner
and sitting on a bench. A door is shut and occasionally, there are
muffled voices heard from within. Hannah and Heath enter. Hannah greets
her sister, Heath lingers behind.
Hannah: Hey, Allegra.
Allegra: Hey.
Heath: Is it safe?
Allegra: Shut up. The nanny took Adelle to Chuck E. Cheese.
Heath: Shame. Nothing spices up a night with the family like a howling
banshee child.
Allegra: Fuck you, Heath.
Suddenly, the voices behind the closed door become loud and angry.
Hannah: What’s going on in there?
Allegra: I think dad’s getting his first review.
Heath: Have you read it?
Allegra: No. I didn’t even think that Mom had seen it yet.
Hannah: Doesn’t sound like it’s getting a starred review. What the hell?
The door bursts open and Seymour storms out, followed by Virginia,
who holds the galley of the book in her hands.
Virginia: Honestly, Seymour, how could you have this published? Do you
understand the gravity of this situation? This will just give my
detractors a giant plate full of ammunition to use against me. You’ve
absolutely-
Hannah: Mom, what’s going on?
Virginia: Your father, children, has managed to do what no one else has,
not even the vile muckrakers who’ve spent the last three years trying to
dig up dirt on me. His memoirs here will be the downfall of my career
and probably our whole family.
Heath: …Thank God, I’m off the hook.
Virginia: Your father-
Seymour: Your mother is over reacting, as usual.
Virginia: You’re delusional! You have no idea what you’re doing to me,
simply by having this published.
Seymour heads for the door, grabbing his coat.
Seymour: I’m sorry. I’m going to have to ask for a rain check, kids.
Allegra: Daddy, wait.
Virginia: I will get an injunction. I’m serious, Seymour. It’s become
painfully clear that you don’t have even a shred of affection left for
me, but if you care anything about your children, you will not publish
this book.
Seymour: Virginia, my dear… Fuck off.
Seymour slams the door.
Allegra: Just great, you guys.
Allegra exits the door in a rush.
Hannah: Oh, my God. Mom, what’s going on? What did he write about that’s
so-
Virginia: You know, Hannah. I- He just never considers the consequences
of his actions.
Hannah: Okay. That tells us nothing.
Virginia: I’m sorry, sweetheart. Look, can we reschedule dinner for
tomorrow night? We can discuss it then, I have a very early morning and…
Heath: (exchanging curious looks with Hannah) Sure, we can do that. Are
you going to be all right, though?
Hannah: Yeah, you seem really upset.
Virginia: Tomorrow night. Heath, could you stay behind? I need to talk
to you about something.
Hannah: I can wait if you two need to discuss-
Virginia: No, you go on ahead. I’ll have a car bring Heath home in a
bit.
Hannah: Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow, then.
Heath: See you when I get home.
Hannah exits. Heath visibly takes a deep breath.
Heath: What is it? Mom?
Virginia: We need to discuss something. When your father told me that he
was going to write his memoirs, I was certain that he’d be respectful of
some of the more-private aspects of our life together. I thought he’d be
aware that whatever he wrote could have profound effects on our lives,
all of our lives. Most of all, I expected that he would be sensitive
when it came to you and your sisters and what he wrote about the three
of you. As it turns out, he has looked back on his life unflinchingly
and without regard to how some incidents he’s so- forthcoming about-
could affect us now. (She begins to uncap a bottle of gin) Do you mind
if I drink?
Heath: No.
Virginia: Okay. (She pauses and re-caps the bottle) Actually, I don’t
think I will. Listen, I’m sure you’ve realized by now that Seymour and I
always had a troubled relationship. Even though we stayed married until
you’d begun college, we had almost called it quits countless times in
the past. I know that you’re aware of his affairs. You may not be aware,
however that I committed my own share of infidelities. Not that it
compared remotely to the amount of times Seymour cheated on me. God damn
him. I can’t believe that this is how you’re going to find this out. I’m
sorry, Heath.
Heath: What are you trying to tell me? I don’t think I understand.
Virginia: One of the affairs that I had was in 1975, when your father was
living in Venice, writing Close Your Eyes.
Heath: After I was born?
Virginia: No, sweetheart. Before you were born. For two years before you
were born, until I was 4 months pregnant with you. (Again, with more
certainty, she uncaps the bottle of gin) Seymour is not your father,
Heath.
*The
next day: Heath goes to see Ryan.
Ryan:
Oh my God. Heath.
Heath: Okay, you can stop saying that.
Ryan:
What did Allegra have to say about it? I’m sure she’s in hog heaven
knowing that she’s only half related to you.
Heath: Allegra doesn’t know. I don’t think she does, anyway. Maybe she
does, maybe she’s always known. Maybe that’s why she hates me so much.
Ryan:
How about John boy? What does he think about this?
Heath: ...Stop calling him John boy.
Ryan:
He doesn’t know yet? You told me first.
Heath: Yes, Ryan, I told you first. We could always talk, that was never
our problem.
Ryan:
Plus, you know that anything that happens with your family pales in
comparison to my insane parents.
Heath: That, too.
Ryan:
Plus, the sex was great.
Heath: …Yep.
Ryan:
Why aren’t we together, again?
Heath: Because you chose Drew over me. Except for the Great 43-Day
Affair. Remind me, how long did you wait after I boarded the plane to
London until you went back to him?
Ryan:
That’s right. I was an indecisive bastard, wasn’t I?
Heath: Yeah, you were. Are you seeing anyone now?
Ryan:
Depends. If you’re asking because you’re thinking about ditching John
boy and giving us another try, the answer is no.
Heath: That’s not why I’m asking.
Ryan:
Too bad. When are you going to tell him?
Heath: I don’t know. Tonight. I have to see my father, though. …Seymour.
The Great 43
Day Affair:
The Hamptons.
June 2002. Sunday Morning 2AM:
I willed my
hand free from his. I took a step backwards, losing my balance for a
split second. I leaned against his car, my hand on the still warm hood.
"I'm
going to London, Ryan."
"I
know," he said, and I exhaled, frustrated at the warm drop I felt moving
down my cheek. "What?"
"I'm mad. I'm
mad at you because here you are, and you're kissing me, and it's the
best thing that's happened to me in a long time. But in 43 days, I'm
going to be in London, Ryan, and you'll be here. And despite the fact
that I've spent the last six years wanting exactly this, to be here, to
be with you," I stopped to breathe while the internal battle between my
heart and my head waged stronger than ever, "I can't choose you, Ryan. I
can't, as much as I want to. Even though I've waited for you, waited
through every stupid guy you went for-waited through Drew, I can't-" I
couldn't say any more, reeling from the fact that for once, my brain was
the Judas to my heart instead of the other way round. "I can't stay," I
finished.
There was a
silence. He stood next to me. Our arms were touching, both of us sticky
from the humid night air and the heat between us. He cleared his throat
and spoke again. "You’ll be gone for six months, yes. We have 43 days,
though. Can we see where that takes us?" I kept my eyes on the starless
sky, on a moon that was close to being full. My mouth opened a couple of
times, my shoulders shrugged, but I didn't have a word to say because I
felt like God's biggest punch-line. "Trust me, in 43 days you won't like
me as much. You'll be glad to leave me behind."
"Would you
swear to that? Do a really good job. Do something to really piss me off,
so I won't miss you when I leave."
"Oh, I'll make
you hate me completely," he said, while his fingers re-entwined with
mine.
"I love you,"
I said in a tone that sounded very much like: I can't believe that I'm
still in love with you. I pulled him towards me and moved my hand up and
down his spine, kissing his forehead, the side of his face, his neck.
"I'm sure I'll
fuck that up."
"Ha," I said.
Heath
and Seymour:
The door had barely opened before Heath said, “Is that how you
wanted me to find out? In your fucking book?”
Sarah Batiste, gorgeous and mocha-skinned with a honeyed voice
said, “Ah. Heath-“
Heath was startled, then apologetic, then frazzled. Then angry
again, “Where is he, Sarah? Did you know about this? Did you know that
he was going to tell the whole world I’m his illegitimate son in his
fucking book before even telling me?”
“I knew about you, Heathcliff. When he started writing, I told him
that he had to talk to you first. But your father and confrontation,
communication, even-“
“Please, Sarah. Is he here?”
Seymour appeared from his leather-bound, smoke-filled workroom, the only
place in the apartment he shared with Sarah that really had his imprint.
He opened his mouth and shut it again. Finally, “I know I handled this
the wrong way. I didn’t know what to say to you.”
Heath had never felt as sorry for his father as he did just then.
“You asshole. You’ve never really known me well. Something like this. It
wasn’t going to break me. The simple fact that you and I aren’t blood
relatives doesn’t make me love you any less. It doesn’t change who I am.
Who we are. I’m 33-years-old. I’ve had a pretty good life. And when
things weren’t good it was because I was doing my damnedest to fuck them
up. I’ve never had illusions about you. Or mom. I know that neither of
you are perfect people. But you’re my family and I love you. Even though
there are times I want to murder you both in cold blood. But to let me
find out like this? That’s what makes me feel like I’m not your son.
That’s what makes me feel so hurt and so abandoned.”
“I’m not abandoning you, Heath. You’ll never be any less important
to me than Allegra or Hannah. I know, I know that I ought to have told
you before. Frankly, I thought Virginia would have had the tact to let
us discuss this rationally, together. This relationship though, the
affair between her and Martin fucking Hewitt, it had such a profound
effect on our lives and inevitably, my writing-“
Heath suddenly becomes intently focused on Seymour. “Martin Hewitt?
Did you say Martin Hewitt?”
“Yes, that fucking- Didn’t your mother tell you it was him?”
Heath’s face crumpled because it was taxed with despair, anger and
disgust. He took a ragged breath, a quaking gasp. “She didn’t. We didn’t
talk about that. I didn’t ask.”
Seymour’s head shook, his mouth hung open. “No. It’s hardly important,
is it?”
Heath struggled to keep from doubling over. “I can’t talk about
this anymore. I can’t now.”
Seymour’s eyes welled up with sympathy. “Why don’t you stay a while? We
can have dinner, we can talk. About other things. Anything you want.”
Heath already had his hand on the doorknob, though.
Once he was downstairs, after almost vomiting in the empty
elevator, Heath moved slowly out the doors. Every breath he took was
slow and deliberate. He was trying to keep it together, to stay calm.
Upstairs, in the apartment, Sarah whispered to the weeping Seymour, “It
just made everything real. You know? It’s one thing for him to find out
that you’re not his father. Another thing entirely to find out who this
person is.” Outside, on the street, Heath passed by the bushes
surrounded by those strange spiked fences that you find all over town.
He stopped and touched them. Sharp. He wrapped both hands around them,
cold metal. What are these here for? So the pigeons won’t stoop in front
of someone’s apartment? He’s always wondered. He often sees them,
walking through the city and imagines himself squeezing them. He does
it. Hard. The sharp edges cut into his meaty palms. There is a deep
intake of breath and after a moment, that strange sense of calm that
he’s experienced so many times before, the one that follows the sharp
shock of pain. Heath suddenly remembered where he was and knew where he
wanted to be. He stuffed both hands into his pockets and walked
downtown.
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Heath walking downtown as the sun sets on the city.
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TO:
Ryan in his apartment, the door buzzer sounding.
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Heath in a hallway, rushing.
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TO:
Ryan opening his door.
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TO:
George, an older gentleman, opening his door.
The door had barely opened before George saw Heath standing in
front of him, shaking and crying. When Heath wiped a tear away with his
hand, it left stains from his bloody palm across his face.
“Heath, what happened? Come in,” George said. “I’m glad that you called
me.”
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TO:
Ryan ushering in some random hot guy, saying, “So are we gonna do
this?”
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TO:
Heath was crying so hard that it was difficult to make out what he
was saying: “I wanna drink. I want- I really want to drink, George…”

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